Center

Finally finished the class on forensic pathology. What a whirlwind experience! I think it was by far the most frustrating, exciting, fast-paced, time consuming class I've taken (and that includes classes from my undergraduate career!). Just an immense amount of reading and writing and test taking. So what did I learn from it? Beside all the gruesome details like inlet/exit wounds of firearms, sharp force trauma and blunt force trauma patters, asphyxia, I think most was how to stay centered and focused. Face the issue at hand and not get flustered by it. Sometimes you have to jump right in and go head long into the task (like a midterm or a 20 page paper) but other times you just have to find other ways around it, look at it from a different perspective. Yes, I believe I'm applying wing chun principles off the mat. I feel all "mystical and kung fu-ey." Haha!

reflection

there always comes that time every couple of months when i have to poke my head up and see where i am, get my bearings straight. so far it's a vast wilderness that i see before me. some of it looks quite daunting. i guess right now things are pretty good because i have a job, i have income, i have something i'm working toward (masters degree). but there are so many things up in the air like the job i want, the house i want, the ability to breathe and not feel like i'm holding my breath waiting for something. i've come to a decision about things. i don't just have dreams or hope anymore. i have goals. dreams and hope are nice, you know. you can dream about that job or that life. you can hope it happens, but unless you make it into a goal, it's not going to happen. so i'm turning all my hopes and dreams into goals, goals that i can achieve, that i tell myself i have to achieve. anyway, serious post for once. time to make my hope of getting to bed before midnight a reality. haha.

nostalgia

it's always weird to be back home. maybe it's because i don't come back often that when i do, it seems to all hit me at once. well, i did get to meet up with a friend who i haven't seen in six years. six years!!! holy crap i'm old! it's great to catch up though and find out that even though things have changed over the years, friends are still friends. that's always a nice feeling. sometimes it makes me miss the area and then i go all nostalgic. maybe if things work out, i'll move back. who knows. i'll get to see my friends more. now i'm thinking of all the stupid things i did in high school and thinking how stupid and immature i was. haha. well i think i was too mature and too immature all at the same time. oh hindsight, how i love thee! okay enough of the reminiscing. it's all gooey back there.

whoa

wow it's been a whole month since a post. i guess i got busy. *nod, nod, nod* well, that's what happens when you're working and in school. yes, i'm finally pursuing my master in forensic science! huzzah! now hopefully with that comes a job. yes, a reall csi job would be good. i dunno, besides that, i haven't been doing much else. nothing fun or interesting. just a lot of studying, paper writing, test taking, more paper writing, not sleeping. oh and throw in some wing chun into the mix and blend. it's been good though. speaking of wing chun, i'm trying to grade for my orange sash. i really don't think i'm ready but we'll see. hopefully i'll have a couple more weeks to practice. i think i'm learning a lot in the various classes, and i just need time to incorporate it into muscle memory. most of the time, i still don't know what the heck i'm doing. i feel like i've got the technique down when we're drilling, but when it comes to being thrown a random punch or kick, i'm completely at a loss. we'll see how things turn out after i start sparring. that'll be interesting and likely funny to watch.

uuugh

Sooooo tired!! Who would have thought this week would be so tiring. After that huge paper last week, the furthest thing on my mind was doing assignments and a final. But man, after finishing that, I'm just exhausted. School's not as easy as it seemed back in college. Maybe it's because I'm working as well and trying to have a somewhat normal life. This is why I have to go to kung fu training, to blow off steam. I build up a lot of steam at work. This week in particular. All I want to do now is shower and collapse. Perhaps I'll do that. Next week doesn't look to appealing. Much in the way of overtime. Yay for money but boo to being overworked and underpaid.

late nights and energy drinks

I didn't think I'd be up to doing this again, studying. How strange it is to be up trying to finish an assignment after a whole year of, well, not. I'm tired beyond tired considering I actually have to be present at work everyday at 7am. How glorious! Caffeine is my friend once again. I always tell myself that I'll try to get up early and do something, but that never happens. And then there's the procrastination, like I'm doing now. Okay time to get off the internet and continue working. Have to finish by midnight! That's the goal for tonight.

Miley Cyrus????

I never thought I would like music by this new breed of teen pop musicians but I was listening to the radio at work and Miley Cyrus' The Climb came on. I had no idea who sang it until I Googled it and took a double take. Miley Cyrus???? Me, like a song by Miley Cyrus?? What's next Taylor Swift? Jonas Brothers??? But anyway, I like the song. Actually, I feel like this could be my anthem right about now.

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,
cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb