reflection

there always comes that time every couple of months when i have to poke my head up and see where i am, get my bearings straight. so far it's a vast wilderness that i see before me. some of it looks quite daunting. i guess right now things are pretty good because i have a job, i have income, i have something i'm working toward (masters degree). but there are so many things up in the air like the job i want, the house i want, the ability to breathe and not feel like i'm holding my breath waiting for something. i've come to a decision about things. i don't just have dreams or hope anymore. i have goals. dreams and hope are nice, you know. you can dream about that job or that life. you can hope it happens, but unless you make it into a goal, it's not going to happen. so i'm turning all my hopes and dreams into goals, goals that i can achieve, that i tell myself i have to achieve. anyway, serious post for once. time to make my hope of getting to bed before midnight a reality. haha.

nostalgia

it's always weird to be back home. maybe it's because i don't come back often that when i do, it seems to all hit me at once. well, i did get to meet up with a friend who i haven't seen in six years. six years!!! holy crap i'm old! it's great to catch up though and find out that even though things have changed over the years, friends are still friends. that's always a nice feeling. sometimes it makes me miss the area and then i go all nostalgic. maybe if things work out, i'll move back. who knows. i'll get to see my friends more. now i'm thinking of all the stupid things i did in high school and thinking how stupid and immature i was. haha. well i think i was too mature and too immature all at the same time. oh hindsight, how i love thee! okay enough of the reminiscing. it's all gooey back there.