reflection

there always comes that time every couple of months when i have to poke my head up and see where i am, get my bearings straight. so far it's a vast wilderness that i see before me. some of it looks quite daunting. i guess right now things are pretty good because i have a job, i have income, i have something i'm working toward (masters degree). but there are so many things up in the air like the job i want, the house i want, the ability to breathe and not feel like i'm holding my breath waiting for something. i've come to a decision about things. i don't just have dreams or hope anymore. i have goals. dreams and hope are nice, you know. you can dream about that job or that life. you can hope it happens, but unless you make it into a goal, it's not going to happen. so i'm turning all my hopes and dreams into goals, goals that i can achieve, that i tell myself i have to achieve. anyway, serious post for once. time to make my hope of getting to bed before midnight a reality. haha.