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Sooooo tired!! Who would have thought this week would be so tiring. After that huge paper last week, the furthest thing on my mind was doing assignments and a final. But man, after finishing that, I'm just exhausted. School's not as easy as it seemed back in college. Maybe it's because I'm working as well and trying to have a somewhat normal life. This is why I have to go to kung fu training, to blow off steam. I build up a lot of steam at work. This week in particular. All I want to do now is shower and collapse. Perhaps I'll do that. Next week doesn't look to appealing. Much in the way of overtime. Yay for money but boo to being overworked and underpaid.

late nights and energy drinks

I didn't think I'd be up to doing this again, studying. How strange it is to be up trying to finish an assignment after a whole year of, well, not. I'm tired beyond tired considering I actually have to be present at work everyday at 7am. How glorious! Caffeine is my friend once again. I always tell myself that I'll try to get up early and do something, but that never happens. And then there's the procrastination, like I'm doing now. Okay time to get off the internet and continue working. Have to finish by midnight! That's the goal for tonight.

Miley Cyrus????

I never thought I would like music by this new breed of teen pop musicians but I was listening to the radio at work and Miley Cyrus' The Climb came on. I had no idea who sang it until I Googled it and took a double take. Miley Cyrus???? Me, like a song by Miley Cyrus?? What's next Taylor Swift? Jonas Brothers??? But anyway, I like the song. Actually, I feel like this could be my anthem right about now.

I can almost see it
That dream I’m dreaming but
There’s a voice inside my head sayin,
You’ll never reach it,
Every step I’m taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing,
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes they might knock me down but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I’m going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,
cause

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

restless

It's Sunday and for some strange reason, I'd rather be at work. Maybe it's just boredom, maybe I'm still thinking of how to reorganize the walk-in fridge so there's more room. I should be relaxing, but I say to myself, I did have a relaxing day. Maybe I need to start working overtime so when I do have days off, I'll enjoy it more. Ick, I'm turning into a workaholic. Wait, I'm already a workaholic; now an even worse workaholic. Well, at least I have wing chun in the evenings. Speaking of which, grading is on Saturday. I have a week to get everything down pat. I think I know it all, but I'm afraid of just tripping over myself which is a likely scenario. Well, I think there's reruns of Law and Order on tv right now. Yay!!

headline news

This month did not bode well for the entertainment industry with the untimely death of David Carradine. Then this week, Ed McMahon passed away, but today was a tragedy with the deaths of Farrah Fawcett and of course, Michael Jackson. The radio waves are bombarded with similar reports of his death and I can see the headlines tomorrow. Front page news, local section, entertainment section, calendar section...and so it will go.

Okay I guess I'm not seeing the intense impact of this. Call me a cynic. I mean yeah, it is Michael Jackson, who is probably the Elvis of our generation, but it still riles me up a bit that this trumps global events in terms of coverage. But I suppose with all the chaos going on locally, nationally, and globally, it's a reprieve from the impending doom of our planet.

Anyway, in other news:

> Iranian opposition leader Mir Houssein Mousavi continued to urge supporters to protest and will continue to challenge the elections that took place earlier this month.

> North Korea warns of retaliation if the US leads an attack. "Let's crush them," was the chant of hundreds of thousands at an anti-US rally.

> The Supreme Court ruled 8-1 that the strip search of an Arizona middle school student was illegal

want but can't have

sometimes there are things that you want so badly but you know you can't have them. no matter how much your heart wants it, you know in your mind it's not a good idea and have to use all the resistance in the world to refrain from just going for it. i guess the expression, "cant have your cake and eat it too" would apply.

so now what??

With work well under way and my car issue dealt with, I'm at that phase where I stop to evaluate my life and try to organize it into neat files and compartments. This is where I take time to tie up loose ends, fix things that need to be fixed, take care of finances, make lists of things to do, come up with/revise my 5 year and 10 year plan. Okay, so I micro-manage my life but if I don't, things just get too out of control and I don't like it when things get too unruly. I can cross of, "Get a job" and "Pay off loans". So now what? Master's degree, save money, get a boyfriend?? Apparently my single relationship status is a big topic of conversation whenever I call my relatives. "No, I'm not seeing anyone. Yes, I go out." Anyways, tangents aside, I think the Master's degree is the next on my list. Hopefully, I'll be able to start in a couple of months. Who knows, maybe by next year I'll be a working forensic scientist.