RENT!

So after almost a decade of waiting, I finally got to see Rent and let me tell you, those orchestra tickets were worth every penny and then some. It was incredible. I mean, to hear that music live and see Adam Pascal and Anthony Rapp live onstage was uninmaginably awesome. Half the time I had chills running down my back because the music was amazing. The other half, I was pinching myself to make sure it wasn't some dream. And then there was some audience participation in "Over the Moon" which was just great. (That's the song where Maureen asks the audience to moo with her. So we all moo-ed.) The whole storyline (albeit a modern retelling of La Boheme) is so much more than just about a bunch of gay people living with AIDS. It's about community, friendship, coping with life, coping with loss, finding stability, finding love, finding your dream but not selling out. There are so many songs, little interludes and such, that really touch on these points. Anyway, go see the show. It's awesome.

you can't stop the beat!

i feel like i'm going at a million miles a second. so many ideas, aspirations, desires. so many things that i'm doing and trying out. also addicted to hairspray for some reason right now. so here's a upbeat little number that's on repeat on my ipod.

nerd!

okay, i admit it, i'm a huge nerd, geek, dork, whatever. i can usually pretend i'm normal but then there's that random moment when i let something slip which reveals my nerdiness. it can be a huge turn off, especially when you're trying to impress people, especially if those people are your potential future supervisors! but it's then always nice to find out that the person is just as nerdy as you are, which is a huge relief. ok that's my rant of the day. nothing else new, except for my food poisoning/stomach flu issue. i need to get out of the house!!

Opera!

I've forgotten how much I love going to the opera. The last time I went was four years ago to see Baz Lurhman's La Boheme. And let me tell you, it was awesome! I mean, Baz Lurhman production, Puccini, LA BOHEME!! Anywho, The Marriage of Figaro was really good today. I guess I got sick of listening and playing Mozart that I never got to appreciate his larger and longer works. So I'm glad I went. The UCLA Opera is pretty impressive, some major talent. I realized that I tend to stop focusing on the staging after a while. I just focus on the music. And there's something about Mozart's music that just facilitates philosophical inquests in ones mind. I found myself thinking about so many things, some trivial, some profound. I like that about classical music, it makes you think. Or it helps you think. No wonder I did so well in high school: so much Mozart! Haha. Maybe I'll go listen to some symphonies and boost my IQ.

insomnia!

so i tried to go to sleep early tonight, at 10, but instead i'm blogging at midnight. we can see just how successful that endeavor turned out. anyway, i've been watching csi and doing crossword puzzles for the last two hours. yes, at the same time. i'm getting to be able to finish 75% of the ny times crosswords. that's a C average. working toward a B, but right now i'll settle. i keep having weird dreams. i should try that valerian root supplement and hopefully that'll help. it just get so loud sometimes which is the monkey wrench tossed in to mess up my sleep. did you know that it only takes 7 minutes to fall asleep. the act of falling asleep is actually quite fast. getting to that stage is the long part. oh well, hopefully this time it works.

american idol

Okay, so admittedly, the first episode of American Idol was pretty amusing and entertaining, but how many season's into it are we now? I mean eight seasons of finding the next American superstar just isn't enough. On top of that there's all the other talent contests on primetime TV. Honestly, with all the Michael Jordans, Angelina Jolies, and Brad Pitts to idolize, you'd think we'd have our heads filled to exploding with fantasies about them. It just made me think (and thinking is good because hero worship reveals a lack of intellectual examination) that we idolize and hero-ize them because there's so much we don't know about them. Well that was obvious. But think about it, why do we not idolize our friends or our family in the same way we idolize celebrities. We even go as far as idolizing fictional characters like Superman, Batman, or Gil Grissom and the rest of the CSI team (guilty as charged). But why? Because there's so much mystery to them, so much background about them that we don't know. It's like putting candy in front of a child and telling him not to eat it. These people are dangled in front of our noses and we're dared not to try to know them, to dig into their past, into their interests, their love lives. This aura of mystery surrounding these people is what gets to us eventually because by nature, human beings need connection. We form or seek to form connections with people, to get to know who they are an in turn letting them know who we are. I think it's this drive that causes us to be fascinated with celebrity figures and superstars because we fantasize about knowing them, connecting with them. So what's the moral of this rant? I don't know, just an intellectual investigation of idol worship. It's one of those phoenomenons that happen and no one wonders why it happens. Well, I wondered why.

"If man could only know each other, they would neither idolize nor hate."
Elbert Hubbard

lack of insight

boredom reigns!! i haven't had many insightful moments worthy of blogging about for the last couple weeks so here's to nothing! *raises champagne glass* well, i suppose there is some news deserving of a mention: 1) got sick. yay! 2) had several interviews. even bigger yay!! 3) getting a wii, possibly. okay, so i'm not so sure about the last one, but it's been "weighing heavily" on my mind. we'll see, but it just might be that i vaccilate back and forth over it, decide not to buy it, and then just buy it on an impulse. that's the most weighty decision i've had to face lately. hopefully that will change if i get hired. then it's which location, salary, benefits, my 401k and ira, blah blah blah. then i officially get to enter into post-college, working world. i get to commute!! but i also get more money. so that's a bonus. but i will have to reschedule my other activities like going to the gym, hanging out with sisters, cooking, shopping, cleaning, and the stuff that falls under the category: nothing. i'm actually quite excited about all that. let's just hope i get the job first.